myheartdownonpaper

     Each day I strive to be a better person, and let my good heart shine through. But I am also a real person, with feelings & I harbor a lot of pain& emotion inside. I’m very sensitive about things and that causes me to act out, and it is not always in a rational manner. I’m not innocent & I have a lot of flaws that I am working on, to be a better person for myself.  But also to be a better person for whoever I am with.

When I say who I am “with” I mean romantically, physically, mentally  and that will cater to me emotionally. Someone that is in my corner & accepts me for me and trys to help me be better, in every way. Someone that will give me the extra push that I need to be inspired. Someone who teaches me new things, and walks with me to success. Not someone who points the finger at me all the time, and doesn’t feel that my love is strong or as genuine as theirs. We both need to have a deep connection, and a faith in our love. I want to be able to know you like my reflection, and breathe you like spring air. I want you to be apart of me like my rib, and I cant live without you. I want you to be my best friend  and I can confide in you about anything, & to know that our bond is like no other.

My guard has been up for so long that I really don’t even know how to let it down. People can really hurt you& the heart is very fragile. Someone can love you one day, and be in tuned with your every thought, and then ignore you the next. That same person you spent countless hours making passionate love with, can be the same one to turn there back on you. A person can take a dagger & stab you in the heart, and still feel the need to run over it 3 times with a pick up truck! I know you cant paint this picture of everyone. Then there would never be any trust, and with no trust, there’s no love. At least there is no successful love without trust. Needs have to be met on both ends to truly be happy. & You must always be right with yourself, before you can focus on someone else. Its a constant battle…. but if you want it, it can be yours. 

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